My name is Beverly and I'm an Internet Addict :-(

So not too long ago I was checking my twitter timeline and came across this great article about wasting time online. As a self-proclaimed victim of "ADD", the internet is by far my worst enemy. I actually blocked a site that I go on WAY too often a few months ago only for the "block" to not work at all.

After several other attempts at solving this issue I had a revelation if you will.

Why do I need devices or programs to keep me from surfing the internet???

I'm 29 years old. Which means several things:

1. I've lived a good amount of my life without smart phones and 24/7 online access in general
2. I'm too old for this ish
3. Depending on "tools" is only a temporary fix to a major problem.

So what's the answer?

For you it may be one of the solutions offered in the article, but for me I'm going to go with good ole fashioned self control (in addition to a big sign on my desk that says STOP SURFING!!!).

Either way i need help.

I will update you on my progress.

Wish me luck.

Sincerely,

Beverly
aka The Woman at the End of the Internet

Frank Ocean - Swim Good

Dope video. I don't know what's going on exactly, but I like it. Enjoy!


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The Keeping the Dream Alive Movement

Theme music for this post can be found HERE
I'm a dreamer.

I've always been that way. As a child, (warning the next few next lines will be slightly corny with a splash of cute) I would often spend my Saturday's laying out back staring at the clouds just dreaming. I would stare at the clouds dreaming so hard that the clouds would become whatever it was that I was dreaming about.

As an adult I still look to the sky and dream, but now I use my life and surroundings to turn those dreams into reality instead of a cloud.

That's what we as adults are supposed to do right??

I've recently learned that while it may be difficult,  dreaming and turning the dream into a reality is the easy part.

Keeping the dream alive is what its really about. That's how you know that you've accomplished something.

I'm struggling with that right now.

I've come to the realization that I put too much pressure on myself to be "perfect". So much that the pressure almost always turns into self doubt, which is counter productive to the whole "keeping the dream alive" movement.

Add the fact that I lost some resources needed to keep the dream alive, my love life is all over the place and I'm pms'ing....yea this "keeping the dream alive" movement is hard as hell.

But I am not a quitter. I will never be a failure.

I'm Beverly the woman that welcomes adversity because I like the growth that comes along with it. 
So with that said, I welcome these growing pains with open arms.

For once in my life I don't have a plan, but I refuse to allow that to stop me from moving forward like I have a five year one *adds "write five year plan" to to do list*.

I'll be back to report on my findings.

Right now I'm going to go eat some pasta and something sweet (yes its early as hell, but that's what I feel like doing. Plus I have the appetite of McCauly Caulkin in home alone stemming from me feeling like I need to rebel against my mothers rules as an adult...that's another post/issue though lol)

And I'm going to think. Think about what I'm grateful for and what I need to do in order to have even more things to be grateful for in the future.

Wish me luck.

P.S. this post has been sponsored by Iyanla Vanzant and Oprah when they were still friends.;-)

UNEMPLOYED (and loving it!)

Entry 1:

On January (insert date here) 2011 I lost my job.

Yes the economy is bad and yes people are being laid off left and right but that’s not what happened to me….

I was fired (you know…like how they used to do in the old days??)

For reasons that are neither here nor there lol (I really didn’t do anything lol)

And on January (insert date here) 2011 I started the rest of my life.

You see I’ve been working since I was 14-15 years old (multiple jobs even!) and while I’ve always been a good “worker”

Being a “worker” has never been my goal in life.

It’s actually the ONE thing I always said I wouldn’t be. So with that said I’m sure you can understand how January (insert date here) was actually one of the best days of my life…

This blog will follow me through all my ups and downs as I try to find a place for myself in this world and hopefully aid you in doing the same.

Now some things you should know about me:

-I’m a 29 year old Black woman (officially today is my bday)

-I have a store www.estherwoovintage.com

-I have a very dry sense of humor (some people even call me *gasp* MEAN!!lol)

-I type the letters “lol” WAY too much

-I have HORRIBLE grammar and can’t spell for sh*t

-And  I overuse these: ….

If that turns you off then *shows you the front door*

If not, then stick around…maybe we can grow together…

This blog will be about all the things I love (the usual music, art, fashion, (yawn) , food, reality shows, etc etc, etc)

And all of the things I’ve learned/am learning while trying to navigate through this thing called life.

*goes back to eating my Toll House Cookie bar*