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I'm a dreamer.
I've always been that way. As a child, (warning the next few next lines will be slightly corny with a splash of cute) I would often spend my Saturday's laying out back staring at the clouds just dreaming. I would stare at the clouds dreaming so hard that the clouds would become whatever it was that I was dreaming about.
As an adult I still look to the sky and dream, but now I use my life and surroundings to turn those dreams into reality instead of a cloud.
That's what we as adults are supposed to do right??
I've recently learned that while it may be difficult, dreaming and turning the dream into a reality is the easy part.
Keeping the dream alive is what its really about. That's how you know that you've accomplished something.
I'm struggling with that right now.
I've come to the realization that I put too much pressure on myself to be "perfect". So much that the pressure almost always turns into self doubt, which is counter productive to the whole "keeping the dream alive" movement.
Add the fact that I lost some resources needed to keep the dream alive, my love life is all over the place and I'm pms'ing....yea this "keeping the dream alive" movement is hard as hell.
But I am not a quitter. I will never be a failure.
I'm Beverly the woman that welcomes adversity because I like the growth that comes along with it.
So with that said, I welcome these growing pains with open arms.
For once in my life I don't have a plan, but I refuse to allow that to stop me from moving forward like I have a five year one *adds "write five year plan" to to do list*.
I'll be back to report on my findings.
Right now I'm going to go eat some pasta and something sweet (yes its early as hell, but that's what I feel like doing. Plus I have the appetite of McCauly Caulkin in home alone stemming from me feeling like I need to rebel against my mothers rules as an adult...that's another post/issue though lol)
And I'm going to think. Think about what I'm grateful for and what I need to do in order to have even more things to be grateful for in the future.
Wish me luck.
P.S. this post has been sponsored by Iyanla Vanzant and Oprah when they were still friends.;-)
I'm a dreamer.
I've always been that way. As a child, (warning the next few next lines will be slightly corny with a splash of cute) I would often spend my Saturday's laying out back staring at the clouds just dreaming. I would stare at the clouds dreaming so hard that the clouds would become whatever it was that I was dreaming about.
As an adult I still look to the sky and dream, but now I use my life and surroundings to turn those dreams into reality instead of a cloud.
That's what we as adults are supposed to do right??
I've recently learned that while it may be difficult, dreaming and turning the dream into a reality is the easy part.
Keeping the dream alive is what its really about. That's how you know that you've accomplished something.
I'm struggling with that right now.
I've come to the realization that I put too much pressure on myself to be "perfect". So much that the pressure almost always turns into self doubt, which is counter productive to the whole "keeping the dream alive" movement.
Add the fact that I lost some resources needed to keep the dream alive, my love life is all over the place and I'm pms'ing....yea this "keeping the dream alive" movement is hard as hell.
But I am not a quitter. I will never be a failure.
I'm Beverly the woman that welcomes adversity because I like the growth that comes along with it.
So with that said, I welcome these growing pains with open arms.
For once in my life I don't have a plan, but I refuse to allow that to stop me from moving forward like I have a five year one *adds "write five year plan" to to do list*.
I'll be back to report on my findings.
Right now I'm going to go eat some pasta and something sweet (yes its early as hell, but that's what I feel like doing. Plus I have the appetite of McCauly Caulkin in home alone stemming from me feeling like I need to rebel against my mothers rules as an adult...that's another post/issue though lol)
And I'm going to think. Think about what I'm grateful for and what I need to do in order to have even more things to be grateful for in the future.
Wish me luck.
P.S. this post has been sponsored by Iyanla Vanzant and Oprah when they were still friends.;-)
